whew.. it’s been a while since I’ve posted in this blog.

and when was the last time i’ve created a post? when I was cramming for a project? for the thesis A? nah..can’t remember. Now, I’m leaving the university very soon… yes well, actually I already had my final exams.. and now I’d just have to go to school for my unfinished concerns.

God, I’m a graduate now. And yet, I haven’t seen him.

And I haven’t said yet the things I wanna say.. just for my last term.. just for the final goodbye..

Maybe, it’s just the end. And this is really it.

I miss him, and I know I’m gonna miss him more..

but maybe that’s the way things happen.. I’ve got to go…

so this is who i am
and this is all i know
and i must choose to live
for all that i can give
the spark that makes the power grow

and i will stand for my dream if i can
symbol of my faith in who i am
but you are my only
and i must follow on the road that lies ahead
and i won’t let my heart control my head
but you are my only
and we don’t say good bye
and i know what i’ve got to be

immortality
i make my journey through eternity
i keep the memory of you and me inside

fufill your destiny
is there within the child
my storm will never end
my fate is on the wind
the king of hearts, the joker’s wild
but we don’t say goodbye
i’ll make them all remember me

cause i have found a dream that must come true
every ounce of me must see it through
but you are my only
i’m sorry i don’t have a role for love to play
hand over my heart i’ll find a way
i will make them give it to me

immortality
there is a vision and a fire in me
i keep the memory of you and me inside
and we don’t say goodbye
with all my love for you
and what else we may do
we don’t say goodbye

immortality-celine dion

Could You be healer
To a heart that’s been wounded
In a battle that’s never seen
Could You be teacher
To a mind of confusion
Tell me what does this owe me?
Are You deliverer
Of an imprisoned feeling in chains
Can You set my spirit free
And just one more question
Allow me this question
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah to me

Could You be father
To a soul that’s been abandoned
By a world too busy to hear
Could You be friend
To a helpless survivor
Can You take away my fears

I heard them all sharing
This newfound conviction in them
Are You all that they make You to be

And just one more question
Allow me this question
Could You be Messiah to me
Please be Messiah to me

Now i’ve been looking for someone like You
And i’m so tired, i’m tired
I’ve read every book and i’ve sang every song
My mind maybe right but my heart feels so wrong
Tell me how much further can my life go along
Which way do the roads lead? where do I belong?
Are You forgiver
Of my most unknown secrets
Provider of all that I need
Could You be brother
The one who knows better
Would You now stand in the lead

When all this is over all the thunder and lightning
In the daylight just what will I see
The answers to my questions to all of my questions
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah
Please be Messiah to me…

by: Gary Valenciano

I don’t know why there’s still air

When I can’t breathe

Don’t know why there’s still heartbeat

When there’s no vein left

I can hear my heart is still beating

I guess it is still beating for you

Can’t find the reasons to leave

Trapped in the past

With no memories to recall

Lost amidst the paradise

A paradise of no beginning and no end

It’s so hard to recall the way back to reality

Confused by the ghost of the past

and the broken soul of the present

Puzzled between the forbidden street

and bitumen road

Which way should I go?

Lost and trapped

And still can’t understand why

Pieces of fragments were seemed to be intact 

I’m broken but alive,

Breathing but dead

Happy but alone.  

- Celia O. Cortez

by Kyla

Here I am
Alone and I don’t understand
Exactly how it all began
The dream just walked away

I’m holding on
When all but the passion’s gone

And from the start
Maybe I was tryin’ too hard
It’s crazy coz it’s breakin’ my heart
Things can fall apart but I know,
That I don’t want you to go

And heroes die,
When they ignore the cause inside
But they learn from what’s left behind
And fight for something else

And so it goes
That we have both learned how to grow

And from the start
Maybe we were tryin’ too hard
It’s crazy coz it’s breakin’ our heart
Things can fall apart but I know,
That I don’t want you to go

[Bridge]
Oh it’s just too much
Takin’ all the whole world all by myself
But it’s not enough
Unless I stop trusting somebody else,
Somebody else
And love again

[Instrumental Interlude]

And from the start
Maybe we were tryin’ too hard
It’s crazy coz it’s breakin’ our hearts
Things can fall apart but I know,
That I don’t want you to go, no
Maybe we were tryin’ to hard
It’s crazy coz it’s breakin’ our hearts
Things can fall apart but I know,
That I don’t want you to go
Oh no, don’t want you to go

Source: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kyla/i_dont_want_you_to_go.html

“Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away

And all the things I want to say can find no voice.

Then in silence,

I can only hope,

my eyes will speak my heart.”

-anonymous

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I’ll always stay with you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that’s something I can’t do
Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that I could never be
Who’ll give you something better
Than the love you’ll find with me
Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I’d only hurt you
I know I’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

source:

http://www.metrolyrics.com/i-love-you-goodbye-lyrics-nina.html

“A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.”

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“I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I’m going to smile.”

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Life is always fair. Smile. God is always there. Pains are just transitory, stop holding on to the emotions that will only inflict you pain.

smile. Ü just give it a try… there’s nothing to lose…